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Jonathan son of Saul

2 Samuel 1

If you’re leaving then you’re leaving, and I don’t need any stupid explanations. I was lying when I said you were the first, you’re one of many. 

You say it’s over, and that I have to understand, but I’m the one that’s left missing your smell, your body, the heat of your body. 

 

I’m exaggerating, who cares.

 

Yours isn’t even my favorite dick, that’s someone else’s, from my past. 

But.. you’d always play with your fingers, put them in my mouth, gently play with my lips, pull the cheek hard, meet my mouth with a kiss, that’s how I want you, sticking a wet finger into my asshole until my cock gets hard for you. Licking my balls, licking my cock, sucking and grabbing and kissing. Everything is so wet, and I just want to hold you, bite your shoulder. 

This summer was ours. 

 

You’re not turning me into a romantic, and I’m not saying “summer” so that we’ll talk about seasons changing, and how you can’t keep a person in a jar. I’m saying we fucked relentlessly for three months. 

So go already, nobody’s asking you to stay. 

 

Once, there was a guy like you, only with prettier eyes. I’ll never forget when he grabbed my ass with both hands and pulled my cock into his warm, wet mouth. His long tongue licked my cock, and I wanted to cum on the back of his throat, make him cough and choke. Instead I pulled my cock out of his mouth and came all over his lips, he wouldn’t stop looking at me. 

See, there’s a guy who knew how to leave without saying anything, no goodbye. It’s better if you leave now. 

 

It’s just that… it’s so boring in the palace without you.

And there has to be a room or two we haven’t used, I’m pretty sure we fucked in the room with the pink carpet twice, and skipped the room next door. 

The way you looked at me, you held my neck with your warm hand, you kissed my lips, your breath was so hot. 

The way you fucked me, I love feeling your cock in my ass, stretching my asshole, I felt you push and get harder and harder, and when you pushed with all your force, and I knew you were cumming, I imagined your cum shot into me in bursts, filling me up. You held me until your heart stopped racing. I came on the pink carpet, and now it’ll always remind me of you. 

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I guess that's how it goes. Maybe it's not you who is shallow, maybe I'm on the wrong side of the abyss. 

Well my dear, I want you to go now. I have things to do, and the day is almost over. I’ll see you when I see you, I guess. 

2 Samuel 1

1 After the death of Saul, David returned from striking down the Amalekites and stayed in Ziklag two days. 2 On the third day a man arrived from Saul’s camp with his clothes torn and dust on his head. When he came to David, he fell to the ground to pay him honor. 3 “Where have you come from?” David asked him. He answered, “I have escaped from the Israelite camp.” 4 “What happened?” David asked. “Tell me.” “The men fled from the battle,” he replied. “Many of them fell and died. And Saul and his son Jonathan are dead.” 5 Then David said to the young man who brought him the report, “How do you know that Saul and his son Jonathan are dead?” 6 “I happened to be on Mount Gilboa,” the young man said, “and there was Saul, leaning on his spear, with the chariots and their drivers in hot pursuit. 7 When he turned around and saw me, he called out to me, and I said, ‘What can I do?’ 8 “He asked me, ‘Who are you?’ “‘An Amalekite,’ I answered. 9 “Then he said to me, ‘Stand here by me and kill me! I’m in the throes of death, but I’m still alive.’ 10 “So I stood beside him and killed him, because I knew that after he had fallen he could not survive. And I took the crown that was on his head and the band on his arm and have brought them here to my lord.” 11 Then David and all the men with him took hold of their clothes and tore them. 12 They mourned and wept and fasted till evening for Saul and his son Jonathan, and for the army of the Lord and for the nation of Israel, because they had fallen by the sword. 13 David said to the young man who brought him the report, “Where are you from?” “I am the son of a foreigner, an Amalekite,” he answered. 14 David asked him, “Why weren’t you afraid to lift your hand to destroy the Lord’s anointed?” 15 Then David called one of his men and said, “Go, strike him down!” So he struck him down, and he died. 16 For David had said to him, “Your blood be on your own head. Your own mouth testified against you when you said, ‘I killed the Lord’s anointed.’”

17 David took up this lament concerning Saul and his son Jonathan, 18 and he ordered that the people of Judah be taught this lament of the bow (it is written in the Book of Jashar): 19 “A gazelle[a] lies slain on your heights, Israel. How the mighty have fallen! 20 “Tell it not in Gath, proclaim it not in the streets of Ashkelon, lest the daughters of the Philistines be glad, lest the daughters of the uncircumcised rejoice. 21 “Mountains of Gilboa, may you have neither dew nor rain, may no showers fall on your terraced fields.[b] For there the shield of the mighty was despised, the shield of Saul—no longer rubbed with oil. 22 “From the blood of the slain, from the flesh of the mighty, the bow of Jonathan did not turn back, the sword of Saul did not return unsatisfied. 23 Saul and Jonathan-  in life they were loved and admired, and in death they were not parted. They were swifter than eagles, they were stronger than lions. 24 “Daughters of Israel, weep for Saul, who clothed you in scarlet and finery, who adorned your garments with ornaments of gold. 25 “How the mighty have fallen in battle! Jonathan lies slain on your heights. 26 I grieve for you, Jonathan my brother; you were very dear to me. Your love for me was wonderful, more wonderful than that of women. 27 “How the mighty have fallen! The weapons of war have perished!”

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