Somebody took your place, honey. Not that you had hopes, right? No way you thought… you’re so handsome

No, no, I knew you wouldn’t. 

 

No one fucks like you do, but I’ll never tell you that. I miss you all the time, I’ll never tell you that either. I look at you now, and you look the same. I knew there’d come a day that we would talk kindly and politely, and everything would be just fine, and it tore my heart. That’s not the only thing that tore my heart. 

 

I would dress up for you and we would get drunk, dance in the water, I would sit on the kitchen counter as we were cooking, and we’d make out. I’ll never forget, when I was lying on my back in your bed, you stood by my head and put your cock in my mouth. I managed to take it deeper than ever before, into my throat. You paused for a second, surprised, and then continued fucking my throat untill you came. 

 

How could you abandon me. That’s all I want to say to you. I want to look into your eyes and say, how could you abandon me. 

And yes, there have been many since. I don’t know how many. A lot. I used every one of them as another reason we could never get back together, even if I forget the pain. 

 

In hindsight, sometimes you would fuck me as a way to punish me, about something that made you mad. Those were short fucks, your cock would be so hard, you always found a position that caused me pain, you always came somewhere so that people could see. 

One time I was angry with you and we had a fight, you seemed so genuine when you made up with me, you were so charming. Later you fucked me in a closet in the back of the house, and didn’t look at me again the whole day. 

 

You would leave me panties in random places so that other people would find them. I didn’t think you would just leave. I imagined many things, but I never thought you would just leave. 

 

So I moved on. It took so long, and there were so many nights that I masturbated thinking about you, hating myself for it. I would always go back to that one time, I was busy with the laundry, you came behind me without me noticing, grabbed my breasts and pushed a full erection against my ass, you turned my head and kissed me, as you were grinding against me. I went to my knees and sucked your cock until you came on my face. You looked at me from above, I could see you were enjoying yourself. 

I loved you so much and you’re so handsome. You’ll never know. 

 

That’s what happened when you left, you left a space between us, and now we can’t talk anymore. Now we’ll always be apart. I wish you had never left. It would all be different, if only you hadn’t left. 

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